I usually try to keep this blog light-hearted, but real, and above all family friendly. I know that many of my relatives use it as a way to check in on
the three of us Asher and I want them to feel comfortable and have fun seeing what the little bugger is up to.
Every now and then, however, I need to abandon those goals and use this blog solely for its other main purpose -- delving into the experience and knowledge of other moms for personal
gain growth!
Most of the time all of these goals flow seamlessly together. Unfortunately, this time I need to venture into an uncomfortable realm that smacks smartly of TMI.
Sorry everyone. Particularly those with a Y chromosome.
For the brave of heart, read on! And please help, if you can!
As everyone and their sister knows by now, I've been breastfeeding Asher since he was born. We had a great start, then hit some rocky ground when his milk protein allergy manifested itself a few months back. After I cleaned all of the dairy out of my diet his symptoms disappeared and we seemed to be right back on track!
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Mom, I can't believe you're sharing this with the whole world. I'll never be able to show my face in Bugs class again. How humiliating.}
Then, just a week or so ago, I started getting some really serious cracks in my nipples. The kind that cause bleeding and lots of *ouches* from the mama bear. It certainly wasn't fun, but I could endure it and started using copious amounts of lanolin ointment after each pumping or nursing session.
Until this morning.
This morning I started pumping, yelped slightly in pain, and looked down to see gushing blood. I mean Old Faithful type gushing that filled the pumping cup and attached bottled. I've never seen such red milk. Yuck and double yuck.
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Still with me? Thanks.}
Obviously, I can't feed that to Asher and dumped it down the sink. I was left with about 2 ounces of usable milk from the other side and had to supplement the rest of his bottle with formula.
So, here are my questions:
1) Is there anything I can do to help heal these cracks? I'll take medical advice or old wives tales at this point. No remedy is too far out there.
2) Will blood in the milk hurt a baby? I'm afraid to even let him nurse at this point -- what if it bleeds like that again?
3) Should I just give up breastfeeding entirely? I mean, let's be reasonable. He got a great 6 months in, but as far as I can tell my milk {
under normal dietary circumstances} hurts his body and, apparently, kills mine as well. I've worked hard at this, but am about to throw in the towel. I don't want to give up, but it's all starting to become too much.
Encouragment or reality checks are both welcome.
By the way, little mister got a tooth in and is working on a second one. I haven't felt any bites, though, so I don't think any of this is his fault. It's extremely hard to get a photo of baby teeth. See the little white on the bottom right?...
Now for a cute photo to purge our systems of my TMI.
Grandpas welcome back tomorrow.